16 Days to Something New

I'm so happy that I don't have to be like anyone else. I don't have to be girly, or happy, or chatty, or hairstyle/makeup obsessed, or energetic, or outgoing, or texting my friends all the time. I can just be me, and no one can expect anything else.

 

I guess I'm kind of optimistic right now. Because it's still summer. Because we finished choreographing the dance I was worried about. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tj9XlfXC4gU .

 

Because things are better than they were yesterday. I don't know. Maybe I just care less. People will think things about me. They can do that. That's them. And if they're mean to me because of what they think of me, the only fault is in them.

 

Because school is coming. But I can't change that. And even though school is sometimes very stressful for me, and I sometimes hate it, it is still coming, and it will come. Maybe it won't be so bad. And sometimes I like the challenge.

 

And tennis is starting. And even though we have very few games this season, that was never really the point. The point was my teammates, and the way we cheered each other on, and the way we said crazy things on the bus coming back from an away game at 8:00 at night from exhaustion.

 

And my theater camp play is coming. And we aren't ready. But I can only do my best, and that's what I will do. And besides, we have a whole week left. Anything could happen.

 

And a lot of what I ever worried about was all in my head. These things haven't happened yet, but here I was, ruining them, ruining any chance I had to enjoy them. Why did I do that.

 

16 days to something new.